There are no words to describe my anticipation and excitement at this moment. It hasn’t really sunk in yet. I’m not allowing it to. One of my fears right now is that I will get myself overly excited and have too much hopes for something that isn’t even confirmed yet. But, my heart can’t help but get enthused by the fleeting thought of it.
In a few months, or a few weeks, or even a few days, I will find out if I can begin a new chapter in my life. One that I have been waiting for all of my life. And, no, it’s not marriage quite yet. It is one that will put me so far out of my comfort zone that it will satisfy my hunger for challenges and personal development.
Oddly enough, I expect struggles and hardship out of this but the thought provokes me even more. Maybe it’s the impact that I’m hoping to receive. The relationships that I will create along the way. The stories that I will hear. One thing I do know for sure, is that I am more than blessed to be able to share this experience with my best friend and soul mate. I wouldn’t have it any other way or anybody else. No matter where I go and how lost I get, as long as he’s by my side, I will always be home.
My fear is not that we will face hardship and struggles, nor the uncertainty. My fear is that it will not happen at all.